we carry long hair and curves –
we end up carrying lipstick and stockings and long hours in front of the mirror.
we must carry a smile, and optimism, and happiness.
makeup, hair brushes, and a razor are all things we should carry – but don’t bother carrying a pen and paper.
it is optional to carry an opinion – but if you do so – it’s best not to share it.
we are expected to bear a lot, but we must never show the weight.
never show weight.
we just carry a smile, and optimism, and happiness.
we must remember to carry doubt and hesitation.
innocence and long pauses are beneficial too – if it’s not too much to ask for.
and don’t forget to bear the ability to make yourself small.
the hardest thing to carry – is small.
it pushes us inward.
presses, contracts, condenses.
until we feel as though the weight of being nothing will make us become
nothing.
but it is necessary – for we must make room for Them.
They are allowed to grow and eat and express and yell and grow.
Bigger and Bigger.
like a balloon – full of hot air.
while we must get smaller and smaller.
we will carry Their slippers and newspapers – complaints and demands.
but silence, indifference, and an empty stomach weigh a lot.
Much more than Predisposition, Articulation, and Roast Beef.
